My desert story

I wanted to share my testimony of patience and endurance but I couldn’t figure how to say it the right way without blabbering. Therefore, let me just give you an almost-detailed timeline of this long and trying season of mine.

Me, figuratively. Illustration by my good friend.

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Faith to live by

Faith to Live By

This book was given to me as  a Christmas present last 2015. I actually read it when I was in Hamburg last year and re-read it when I was in queue for my passport renewal last week. This is one of those books that you have read over and over again; gaining new perspective in the process.

The impact is strong this time, probably because I am in the season where I really have to exercise my faith and work hard in doing it. This book contains insights on what faith is, why we need it, how it grows, and putting our faith into action. What’s also great about this book is  that it won’t drown you with scholarly information but it lives up to its line, “A practical guide to the life of faith”.

This book is also  a gentle reminder of the true purpose of having faith. It is not for my own encouragement or a fuel to sustain my journey but for the purpose of pleasing God and giving Him honor.

 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

Hebrews 6:11 NIV

When we love someone, we do our best to show how much we love them too. We serve and please them the best way we know how.In the same way, our faith is a manifestation of our love for God. It is not about me and my own personal desires but it is all about loving Him who loved us when we were unlovable. Faith is indeed a gift we don’t deserve and unlike any gift, we should nurture it because it is given by God.

I have to stop sharing now because I might be taking too much from the book, haha. I hope you’d get the chance to read this book and maybe we can share insights too once you’ve finished it.

PS: If you are in the season of waiting like me, I also recommend this video before or after reading this book

Mini-dramatic turn of events

I woke up on the right side of the bed today.

I was up even before my alarm clock went off. I had a quick cardio & my work started late which gave me more time for my devotional and Bible reading. 

It was one of those usual, peaceful mornings but unfortunately, the world found its way to ruin a good day.

I had two bad classes, one impatient student, a home crisis, a plan gone wrong, and a misunderstood friend. My patience and understanding are being put to the test once again; sadly, I let it get the best of me. Mind you, these things happened even before lunchtime. The day was just beginning.

I looked to the Bible placed on my bed and read through what I saw that very morning.

“13 Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. 14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”

Exodus 14:13-14

I recited it over and over again. I remembered my prayers that morning, “Lord, today I know you’re going to show me something incredible. I can feel it. I claim your promise TODAY.”. But by the looks of it.. nope. Not gonna happen.

I was left with two options : to continue sulking or just move on and accept the fact that bad days are bad days. I was so tempted to choose the first option but I just let out a huge sigh and chose the latter.

I was having a bad day but it doesn’t mean I have to feel bad all day long. I just have to accept that things are not turning out the way I want it to be. I am not okay, and it’s okay. 

What I’m going to tell you next sounds dramatic but I don’t want to leave this scene out… I locked myself in the bathroom and I cried.  I felt I have to cry out to God, to tell Him that I wasn’t doing great. I didn’t cry that long, of course, because God doesn’t want me to. I was wired to be joyful, I guess. So I went out of the room, continued with my day, and worked. This late afternoon, however, God wanted to show-off.

Remember the verse I read this morning? Where Moses promised God’s deliverance to the Israelites? Where he told everyone to be still because God is fighting for them? Where I believed that something incredible is going to happen today? Well..

God did what He promised.

I checked my mail this afternoon and was surprised to find out that the Federal Foreign Office replied to my query & told me that my papers are already in the final stages of reviewing.

Technically speaking, this can go both ways but for me, this short update is already a big deal. For more than five months, I’ve been asking for a response. Big or small, I’m just asking for a response. I want clarity. God choose today, of all days, to show me a glimpse of His promise. Just last week, I promised God I would seek Him first more than anything and this is what I get.

What an amazing God.

What an incredible turn of events. 

Thank you, Jesus.

I really did woke up on the right side of the bed today and I’m sleeping on it tonight as well.

Goodnight. Be still; God is fighting for you.