I’ve been in a yo-yo lifestyle with God for the past few months. Some days I am encouraged, inspired, battle-ready… but oftentimes anxious, discouraged and defeated. I honestly want to get out of this lifestyle. I want to set my heart right with God EVERY.SINGLE.DAY
I thought to myself, what do I always do in a time like these? I recalled all the days I felt somber and how I reacted to it. The simple and tested answer: THE WORD OF GOD.
So I said and declare to myself this morning,
“Lord, I want to know You more and more”
Thus begins the first day of revisiting and changing perspectives. I have to take myself, my prayers, my worries out of the picture and focus on God and Him alone. I have to deliberately set my eyes on Him, know Him for who He really is and not only what He can give me. I have to see everyday in God’s lens. I actually exercised this habit a couple of times especially when I feel lost and confused. Each time brings new sets of realizations; even instances that make me feel so unworthy to be called His child.
So today, I am giving up any distractions (like a normal fasting) until God tells me to stop. I used to set deadlines (i.e for one week, no meat. for three days, no social media then back to regular programming) but this time around, I will wait for the Lord’s instructions. I will drown myself with the Word of God until my mind cannot welcome any other ideas that does not belong to God. This is also a good opportunity since Christmas is approaching and what better way to welcome this season by truly knowing my Savior Jesus Christ.
I am sure that this is going to be a one, tough battle but again, this ain’t about me, it is about God.