I am typing this entry while sitting at my neighbor’s couch because well, you’ve read it already: I am having an obligatory internet-free week. By obligatory I mean, our router gave up and our service provider shamefully decides to delay repair. I mean come on, sending repair after a week?
I can actually bear a week without internet but we had an official holiday this week— which could have been nicely spent watching movies and series. My seminars/assignments/pdfs are all online which also gave me such a hassle. The only good thing I can get out of this situation is the fact that my little brother finally had a break. He’s a computer addict, he needs it.
I cannot do my usual sunday post since I don’t have the luxury of typing a detailed entry but let me share three photos:
I believe I’m overextending my stay at my neighbor’s place so I have to slowly finish everything I’m doing online. See you next time!
My (relatively) bum days are finally over! I would call this week that passed an adjustment period and at the same time, making the most out of the free time I have. As usual, let me round up my week’s highlights.
Movie of the Week
Isch kandidiere. It was a recommendation from someone in my class and I surprisingly enjoyed watching it. Quite timely too since today (Sunday, September 24) is Germany’s national election. Here’s the trailer :
and speaking of elections…
Germany’s far right party AfD (Alternative fur Deutschland), got 13,5 percent of predicted votes… which basically translates to racism. I can’t believe we live in a world where we normalize and tolerate racism. These 13,5% never learned from the Nazis and the same way that some Filipinos never learned from Martial Law. History is being rewritten and heading to destruction.
okay happy thoughts happy thoughts
Balik-aral. I love to learn but I’m not really the studying type. Yet this is where I’m heading in my new home I call Hamburg.
Dreaming in German. Two straight weeks of dreaming in German and each time, I felt like I was watching German movies I often watch. This is, of course, a good sign of fluency (according to people and unscientific internet articles) but on the other hand, the language is following me even in my sleep!! I have to work a lot on my communication skills and I look forward to speaking the language without hesitation and fumbling through my vocabulary.
Chikas of the weeks
Kylie Jenner is pregnant! Popoy found her Basha-g!! Why am I shouting?!!
Most Productive Day
Friday. No, I didn’t have a Friday-night-out but I stayed in (as always) and fixed important documents. I also applied to five-six different jobs, printed materials for our children’s church and edited a video for my brother’s girlfriend. Yes, all in one whole day!
The *2nd-cheesiest video I’ve ever edited
It’s a given that I’m the go-to person when someone in the family needs a video presentation or photoshop problems or general computer questions etc etc. My brother asked me to make a video for his gf’s birthday last Friday and worked with some of the photos/videos he gave me. It was honestly a cringey process since that’s my Kuya!!! Haha. I was just laughing in between. The photo above is a screenshot since that’s invasion of privacy but believe me when I tell you, it’s hella cheese.
*The cheesiest video I’ve ever edited was the one I made for my ex ten thousand years ago (jk in highschool) and I used Windows Movie Maker with Daniel Bedingfield’s If you’re not the one as the background.
Kilig of the week
I watched this proposal video today before I went to church and wow! This is really the goal. Someday, I’m gonna find someone who loves God first and we’re gonna honor Him together. It has always been a part of my non-negotiables but being single for quite a longggg time makes you think of changing some just to accommodate what’s available. Hahaha but I thank God for convicting me every time and telling me to wait. If this happened to her, it’s gonna happen to me. Besides, who’s in a hurry? #grabstissueandcry #ikidddd
Why am I suddenly getting so emotional? Okay back to highlights
Most relaxed day
Saturday. The German family I babysit for is on a vacation which means, I finally have a free Saturday!! I went to hang out with my friend Abbie, went grocery shopping, prepared materials for the kids’ church, and sang songs from the 90s. It was a fun, chill day.
1st Highlight of the Week
My university’s orientation week. Check out my previous posts. 😉
2nd Highlight of the Week
Children’s Church and Church’s Potluck. I thank God for giving me the opportunity to serve Him through my new home church! The years I spent serving for the toddler’s ministry back in the Philippines make so much sense now that I’m helping out with the children’s liturgy. Our church also had this annual potluck event and the turnout was really great! Blessed to have fruitful fellowships over the years.
3rd Highlight of the Week
As I’ve said, I had a very productive Friday. I was finally able to finish editing my two months delayed video from July aka Coldplay concert. I actually started editing it last month and left it hanging. I was in the work-mood so I breezed through the editing process, and here it is! Enjoy the short video.
What I’m looking forward to this coming week
PHOENIX CONCERT! My voice is ready.
I’m gonna go back now to listening to the news… or watching a something on Netflix. Let’s see. Till next Sunday!
Day 1 done! Now let’s compare how my first-day-of-UNI expectations are met.
I didn’t arrive at the campus thirty minutes earlier but in a pure German fashion: on time. Thanks and no thanks to Google Map, I was able to find the right direction to my campus but wasn’t a shortcut. My classmates and I walked to the station after orientation, and they were able to show me the shorter route.
Exactly what I expected.
I didn’t have a headache but I put so much effort into staying awake between talks. I was just sleepy the whole morning. We were divided into small groups after the morning talks and met the people I’ll be with the whole semester. Man, they speak really fast. I do however understand them but when everyone’s speaking at the same pace and at the same time, I’m just out there close to shutting down, trying hard to pick up every information. But hey, it’s just the first day. I will get used to this setting. Kopf Hoch!
I didn’t feel any pressure after today since I concentrated on understanding everything. I only know that some of my classes will be highly graded on participation so I really should start working on my skillzzz. I have to deliberately use the language even at home since normally, I just talk to my brother in German (that’s basically his first language) and a few sentences with my family. That’s why as soon as I got home, I was just speaking in German non-stop to my parents’ surprise. I also didn’t speak any English today which is an accomplishment! But wait, do writing this entry and texting a friend count?
I talked to a couple of new people today but I’m not sure if we are friends-friends. Here’s a good news, however : THERE IS A FILIPINO IN MY CLASS! I repeat: I HAVE A FILIPINO CLASSMATE. He grew up in Germany, which means he can’t really speak in Tagalog, but I’ll still take it!! Ah, God really loves me.
I just followed where everyone went.
Generally speaking, today was good despite the difficulties. Somehow it’s a good thing since I’ve painted a picture of what to expect instead of being there with an I’ll-wing-it attitude. I will get used to this new environment and it would be a personal achievement if my language skills are fully integrated to a university level…. without me dozing off in between.
Two weeks ago, the German family I babysit for gave me a gift: a Schultüte. Schultüte is a German tradition where parents give their kids a giant cone filled with school supplies and candies on their first day of elementary. My German Mama thought it was just apt that I get one since I’m starting my Uni.
Yes, two weeks and I haven’t opened it. My self-control is impressive, I am even shocked. My first day officially starts tomorrow and I am in no way prepared since I thought it begins in two weeks. That’s why here I am now, typing all my anxiety away. The only thing that excites me is opening this Schultüte tomorrow morning.
I’m also having this 500 Days of Summer thing where I keep imagining scenarios in my head and wondering how it unravels tomorrow. For clear reference :
Let me share some of my expectations and I’ll check tomorrow whether it was close to what I imagined.
The route to my campus
I plan to take the shortest route with three train changes other than the ten-minute longer route with two train changes. I have never visited my campus so I want to leave thirty minutes earlier in case I get lost. I also have to look for the orientation room so I’m hoping there’ll be signs in the campus. Basically, I see myself tomorrow pretending to know the way even if I have 0% clue.
Lost for words
I’m taking a German degree and up until now, I question this decision (hahahaha). Even though people have been complimenting me on my German skills, I don’t feel at all confident. My comprehension skills are, on the other hand, in its best shape so thank God that’s something I can count on.
A headache at the end of the day
German is still relatively new to me so it isn’t up to par with my English or even Tagalog. (Fun Fact: I got low grades on all of my Filipino classes.) I am even listening to the news right now while typing this just so I could prepare my brain for one whole day of German. I must concentrate to avoid mistranslation. Ah, thinking about it is already giving me a headache. I bet I’ll be exhausted after tomorrow.
I haven’t received my schedule for the first semester other than the list of my 11 lectures. I looked over it this week and the modules were pretty overwhelming for someone like me. I want to take it with a grain of salt, but the overthinker in me is stronger. Tomorrow we’ll be getting the full picture of how my degree looks like and I can feel my stomach already churning up.
One new friend
I’m optimistic: I think I’ll meet a new person tomorrow and of course, I’ll befriend her (or him, who knows?). One new person is enough for me. That’s me being realistic.
Fly on the wall
Thanks to my height, I can go unnoticed in Hamburg. I also don’t have a special wow factor, so that’s not gonna be a problem. I’ll take the backseat for the first few months until I jell into this new environment.
At the beginning of this entry, I was only excited about opening my Schultüte but now, I can’t wait to see when my expectations meet its reality. I better go to sleep now and let tomorrow do its work.
I usually do a rundown of my week’s highs and lows but now I’m gonna do it a little differently. So here are the eight words that resonated to me during the past two weeks.
They say Germans place a high value on punctuality but don’t believe everything you hear. Punctuality is relative. Case in point: My German test result was two weeks delayed, which almost cost me my place at the university. If this happened in the Philippines, I would’ve just shrugged it off since tardiness is in our nature but this is Germany. Who knew the word “late” exist in their crazy bureaucracy?
Good thing I have a God who doesn’t have the word delay in His book. I considered it as a last roadblock in order for me to be in that place of fully trusting God’s timing of things. I received my test results after my time of worship and good things really happen when you just praise His name. It is you declaring that whatever happens, He will remain who He says He is.
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. (Galatians 6:9)
In layman’s terms : kill them with kindness. When people hurt/shame/bully you, do not retaliate. Don’t fight fire with fire. Instead, turn the other cheek. Keep doing good. Show them love. But don’t forget to stand up for yourself. Hold your ground and do it gently. Do it with love. Don’t stop doing good. It doesn’t make you a coward.
Now release the anger, the frustration, the hurt, the disappointments. It doesn’t belong to you. Get a trusted friend you can rant to, I’m lucky I have two.
Coming from a close-knit family, my core values are obviously family-centered. In as much as I rank my family as a top priority (other than God which btw doesn’t belong to any rank since He’s above everything haha), they can also be my biggest source of heartbreak. But then again at the end of the day, bali–baligtarin ko man ang mundo, family is family.
The weather this week has been depressing, which also affected my mood. I just didn’t want to move at all and just watch dark movies on the internet. I turned to chocolates and chips. I didn’t even run and “blamed” it on my knee problems/pulled muscle, even though I know I could push myself and just run slower. Thank goodness this was just a one-week phase. I am assuming this feeling will creep up again since you know, winter’s coming.
I’m glad I can finally laugh about how silly I was for imagining the what ifs since now it’s clear, this is definitely not the one for me. Thanks for the butterflies though. The scenarios in my head were fun till it lasted.
noun. ( PEH-teeks). Definition: [a] Doing nothing or resting when one is supposed to be busy working.
Bilang na ang mga araw ng pagpepetiks ko dahil uni starts in three weeks at diko alam kung ano itong pinasok ko pic.twitter.com/NKElyOkqqy
I was actually having a tip-top week. I bought concert tickets for my second-favorite band, Phoenix, caught up with my teacher (whom I should start calling my friend now), had two group dinner with my language friends, worked productively, managed to lessen my social media habits, and had an afternoon with my church community. But life sometimes surprises you with plot twists which leave you wondering, where the hell did that come from? In my case… Saturday night.
I had to gather all my strength to be able to get out of bed since I have to do something exciting at my home church. By God’s grace, Sunday turned out well but as I am typing this now, the strange feeling is starting to creep in. Before it gets any worse, let me remind myself of how, in general, tip-top this week was.
Activity of the Week
International Pigging out. I must have tasted over five different cuisines this week: Peruvian, Brazilian, Korean (which is not new), Mediterranean, Japanese (also not new) and Indian. Being surrounded by ‘international’ friends do have its perks since if it were up to my habits, I’ll stick to the usuals.
Highlight # 1
Phoenix Tickets: Check!. It’s already set in stone. Now I’m just gonna count the days.
Highlight # 2
The supposed grill turned kitchen cookout.
Someone once told me that when you’re in a church community, you’ll gain pounds since all we do is eat, eat, eat. I’ve been to three-four different communities and all I can say is, this is one of the reasons why I run.
Highlight # 3
That one night that changed this week’s mood. As disheartening as this may be, it rightfully deserves this spot. I am trying to see the good in every situation and what follows are the results:
Lesson # 1
Embrace the bad sides. I’m painstakingly optimistic and it’s gonna take a lot from me to go on a day with black clouds hovering above my head. Life throws curveballs and I have to embrace it— and all the emotions that come with it. It is what makes me human. I allowed myself to feel shame, anger, pity, and disappointment all in one go. BUT..
Lesson # 2
…God’s grace is always available. We are not meant to stay and sulk. We have to get up and kick it out. Personally, I run and pick a preaching. The preaching I listened today hit home unintentionally, which I’m 100% sure is God’s doing. One should only learn to admit that he can’t really do anything better in a dark situation other than to run to God. The problems won’t magically disappear yet there is peace in knowing that God is looking after you and His grace is within reach.
Lesson # 3
Set aside your concerns and glorify God. The moment I stepped inside His home, I am no longer present but His spirit. It was definitely a hard work today but the moment I magnified God, everything just seems insignificant.
Rewarding moment of the Week
The posters we’ve been working hard for a couple of months have been set up! My babies ❤
GOT leak. I’m all for spoilers and actually read the plot leak a couple of weeks back BUT watching the episode still gave me chillzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Pun included
Favorite GOT scene
Tormund and the Hound. I’m gonna be nice and leave it at that. #spoilernospoiler
Song of the Night
Listening to this song while ending this post. See you next week!
I’m deliberately taking a short break from my lazy, movie-marathon Sunday since I feel my eyes watering and my back aching. I honestly want to get this post over and done with so I can go back to my comfort place before a new, long week starts again.
Episode of the Week
The Spoils of War, obv.
Unpopular opinion: As much as Dany is a badass, I don’t appreciate her as much as I did back in Seasons 1-4. More so Jon bending the knee and them having an incestuous romance. Nope, I’m not for it. Also #TeamYgritte4eva
Band of the Week
Two Door Cinema Club. I’m a creature of habit and I’m trying to break it when it comes to music. I would want to explore more choices however I still go back to the bands I listen to… that I haven’t listened in awhile. That does not count as exploring, doesn’t it?
New German Movie
Es war einmal in Deutschland. My previous language school holds a monthly movie event and I get to go to these events eventhough I no longer study German there. It’s a good way to discover movies and learn at the same time. I surprisingly find German movies enjoyable and I stopped watching international dubbed movies. Better to watch it in its original form. I consider so far Lola Rennt as my favorite German film but I like discovering new German films— and this monthly event definitely helps.
In case you’re my German blog reader, I recommend this film too. Es geht eigentlich um das zweite Weltkrieg, doch es ist interessant und auch lustig als ich erwartete.
Die Hexe von Portabello (The witch from Portabello). I was almost at the end but I just gave up and read the ending online. Really not my taste. I’m reading a new one at the moment— a thriller. I had enough of romance.
Bible verse of the week
“The least of you will become a thousand, the smallest a mighty nation. I am the LORD; in its time I will do this swiftly.” Isaiah 60:22
I’m praying for a certain ‘mission’ in my life and reading this verse encourage me to the fullest.
Highlight of the week
Henri and Smilla. I’m babysitting these twins since last year and I’m seeing them slowly grow up. I saw them a lot this week (4 days in a row) and today I saw them swing alone for the first time. It was actually fulfilling… not until three minutes have passed and no one wants to go down the swing. Five minutes in and I saw them falling asleep. So much for the big-kid moments.
Other than these things, I also ran and my splinter got worse. The weather was also intolerable in Hamburg and I just paid 40 euros worth of medicines. Not a slow week, amirite? Now let me go back to my movies and chips.
Running is a permanent fixture in my life and it plays an important part in my character-building. Other than its health benefits (weight loss, cardiovascular conditioning, heart benefits, energy, etc etc), running taught me how to persevere, be more disciplined, and trained my mind in achieving a certain goal. But let’s be honest, as much as I enjoy running, there are days when I really have to push myself to get out and run. Other times, my laziness gets the best of me. There are slow, satisfying, and disappointing runs— and I embrace all of them.
Back in the Philippines, I used to run with some of my friends but since I moved to Hamburg, I mostly run alone. My uncle occasionally joins me when time permits. I’ve actually been searching for a running group for weeks now, however it just doesn’t materialize. Hopefully one day I’ll be able to find people I can run with.
Since I’m always running on my own, I entertain myself just to keep it as tolerable as possible. To give you a clue how, let me openly share my private thoughts while I run.
Okay Nike app, let’s begin.
Huh. Weather’s looking good.
Oops I forgot to stretch
So quick stretching while I pick my playlist
Here we go
I’m feeling f-a-n-t-a-s-t-i-c! Also, good song.
Where should I run now?
Stick to the route
Okay longer route
My legs are werking
Let me check myself real quick
Oops stoplight. Make it green so I can run
I can catch the next stop.
Hmm whatever happened to this person and this person
What’s my crush doing right now
What should I eat after
Okay take a right
*Nike updates my course*
Ugh have to do two more rounds
Thirty minutes?!? I caaan’t
Should I drink my water now?
Ugh my colds
Dog dog dog dog!
Run slow so he won’t bite
Old people. Say hi
I see a stoplight. Yaaaas make it red make it red
No you can do this self
Ughhhh I’m so tired
*Nike updates my course*
Should I do one more round
I should go home
Home is so goddaamn far
Wrong decision to take this route
I can do this. I can do this.
Just keep running.
What will I do next week?
*thinks of a person*
I forgot to message my bestfriend
I should leave my friend a voice message after
Did someone text me?
Or is that an e-mail
I’m almost home
Should I take a short-cut
Nope I can do this
I’m sweating!! This is nice
Ohhh nice house
Ohhh good song
I hope no one can hear me
Ugh why am I running again
I just passed by my park
*Nike updates my course*
I’m not breaking my record. I should run home now.
Patience does reap rewards and I’m harvesting my labor this week… or in millenial/Drake’s term, “I’m way up I feel blessed”. Here’s why:
Highlight of the week
I got an admissions offer at a German university for a German degree!! After one long year of learning a difficult language and fighting the German bureaucracy, I got a positive answer and the degree I actually wanted. I’m studying another BA; it wasn’t exactly what I planned but this is the direction where God is pointing me so I’ll be an obedient daughter and follow. I’m honestly excited about the prospect of studying a German degree even though it entails more hardwork. My next step is to enroll until next week and wait for the start of the semester in October. I only have two months to enjoy my freedom as a half-bum. Haha!
Most memorable and shortest trip
A day trip to Berlin with my Ma. I accompanied my Ma to Berlin to fix her passport and I think, it was one of those rare occasions where I truly spend an ample time with my Mama without thinking of my Papa and two brothers. I was glad to be able to help her out with her documents which made her look back at the instances with her mom, my grandmother. Turns out, I was doing exactly the same things she was doing for her mom. History does repeat itself… which reminds me to be more loving towards my parents so I could experience the same love from my future children. Sounds selfish, but it really cycles back. At the end of our trip, I received the email from the university (see above) and it was a good way to close our day.
Visions and prophecy. This is very personal so I’ll just leave it that.
Kilig of the week
I will try to be very vauge/secretive because the subject ‘might’ stalk me and read this entry. Either way, I’m gonna put this here to remind myself of how good this day was. See, when you just let God move in His own time and in His own way, everything is just…. smooth. It all falls into place.
Book of the Week/Month
Veronika beschlossen zu sterben (Paulo Coelho). I’ve been reading German books to amp up my vocabulary and reading skills. I find Paulo Coelho’s translated books lighter to understand. I’m now on my third Paulo Coelho book (Die Hexe von Portabello) and hope it’s interesting as the last one.
I can now cook Lumpiang Shanghai! This move to Hamburg is bringing out my future housewife skills… or my inner Monica.
Favorite scene on GOT
Nymeria : K bye
Playlist of the Week
Phoenix-Ti Amo Tour 2017. They will be having a concert on September in Hamburg & hell yeah I’ll be there. 2017 is a good year for my “fan” self. I’ve already been to Phoenix’ concert in Manila but now that they have a new album, I should definitely witness it!
All these highlights aside, this week (and even the past two weeks) has been fulfilling. I can see all God’s plan in my life unfolding right before my eyes and all I have to do is let Him move. After all the waiting and the working, I’m reaping what I sowed for. I know that after the harvest comes another season of sowing, but I’ll gladly do it— no questions asked.